not gonna miss it again


A year ago I wrote here about my beautiful eldest girl, Tui. Today, she carries new life in her belly, a second son to join her firstborn Jai, who is about to turn 15. That’s a long while between babies, but she’s ready for him :-)

I was 38 when Jai was born, and in total denial about becoming a grandmother. I didn’t even meet him till he was three. Looking back, I can’t believe that I chose to miss out on his early years like that.

Of course, I miss out on so much in my children’s lives by living on the other side of the world. But really? I completely skipped my first grandchild? That seems amazing to me now. I was young and poor and scared, but somehow that doesn’t seem like a good excuse any more.

So yeah, I plan to go back in November to spend time with Tui’s family, sharing the fun of a newborn. That’ll be three trips back in less than a year. Wow.

I love this self-portrait she took. I stole it from her Facebook page.

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  1. Hi at last, Hashi
    It’s so lovely to see you flourishing again. I tried to visit this blog many times but got ‘server not hosting’ type messages. Send me your email address and I will resend my post-Christmas email plus an update so we can rekindle our friendship.
    Alison in Canberra

    • Hi Alison! My email is hashimaree at gmail dot com. How odd that you were somehow blocked from viewing … so glad it’s working for you now! Yes, please let’s catch up!

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